I was having a conversation with Prince Charming about a person we have met a few times on the bus. She seemed to be the kind of mother who needed accolades for what she does. She seemed to need more than she was getting, or to be getting more recognition than she was getting. On top of that, she seemed to be the kind of mom who finds no great joy in motherhood in general, like it is a job that she does, but that she didn't like it very much. Now this is no judgement on her, I am not in her shoes, I have no idea what is actually in her head and I have no doubt that she loves her children with all her heart.
However, it did make me think of my own thoughts on motherhood, my place in the world and what I really want out of life. The truth is, I am happy with my place in the world. I mean, I would like it to be a different geographical location and I would love to have more money, but if I had all the money in the world and a magic fairy who could grant me a wish, I wouldn't wish to do a different job, I would simply wish to do this one better. I LOVE being a mom. Even in my most sleep-deprived, exhausted moments, I wouldn't change that part of my life. I don't want or need to go out and find fulfillment somewhere else. I don't need accolades and big parades of appreciation. The occasional pat on the back from Prince Charming, the feeling of little arms around my neck, and the sounds of "I love you mummy!", "Yum, this is good, I LOVE noonles!" and little giggles are really all the appreciation I need.
Years ago, I wanted to go back to school. I graduated from college, but I wanted to go back and take something else. But now, I find other ways to stretch my mental faculties. I enjoy other things that aren't about being a mom. But my greatest joys, my greatest fulfillments, my best days, are all about my kids, being the best mom and wife I can be.