Oh No!!

I got a call from my brother that my mom is in the hospital with blood clots in her lungs!  My dad is at home dealing with his heart issues and now my mom is in the hospital!  So scary!

*Sigh* Not Again

Well my dad is back in the hospital again. My mother had my brother call today to tell that dad has been the hospital since yesterday with an increased heart rate and high blood pressure with no idea why.  *sigh*

Bad News

My brother sent me a message this morning.  He wanted me to call.  Apparently my family lost my phone number.  Anyway he told me that my dad had a heart attack on the weekend.    He is at home now and is doing ok.  But what bothers me about the whole thing (other than being worried about my dad) is that this is Tuesday and they are only telling me now.  Shows just how far down their list of priorities I am.  They don't make contact,  they don't visit, they don't keep me in on things.  I really am the low man on the totem pole.  Mother of their only grandchildren, (that they never see) but low man anyway.

My dad and mom

Upsetting News

I am so upset. A town I used to live in a few years ago was hit by what they think is a tornado. The trailer park that I used to live in and that several of my friends lived in was destroyed. I haven't lived there for a number of years, and it is silly for me to be so upset, but I am.

Here is a news video on the damage: http://news.ca.msn.com/canada/video.aspx?cp-documentid=cbcc2010-2406-0719-0004-152927117300

Friday Five . . . Back!

1. Sorry for the unexpected absence. My computer broke and it too time to get back to you!
2. Another hit on the hit list that keeps on coming, my Father-in-law was admitted to the hospital yesterday with a suspected heart attack. They are keeping him again, so it must be serious.
3. We are still planning on moving to improve Princess Belle's situation but we are having troubles finding a place. It is tough, but I know it is best for her.
   
4. Princess Magpie is always trying to help Princess Snifflefritz, she even tries to feed her from her sippy.
5. Princess Snifflefritz ha her first tooth!! She cut it yesterday. I am hoping she is done for a little while, I NEED some sleep!
   

Too Much Loss

You remember, I told you that Prince Charming's Uncle passed away? (I loved him dearly).

Well, three weeks ago, my grandmother passed away as well. I loved her so much. I even wrote a paper on her when I was in high school.

And today . . . my Uncle died. I used to babysit his kids. I remember him playing ball with my dad when I was a kid. I remember him giving me rides on his snowmobile and getting a kick out of scaring me and making me scream. He was a big, vibrant, happy, full of life man with four kids. He lived to see his kids get married, but he won't live to see his grandkids. He was my dad's younger brother.

I am so just so incredibly sad. Heartbroken. I don't know how much more I can take.

Bad Bad Day

Two bad things happened in my world today and they both broke my heart completely. Firstly, one of my favorite people in the world, Prince Charming's Uncle passed away. I loved him. He was always there for us. Prince Charming spoke to him several times every day on the phone. He was there in the hospital the day that Princesss Belle was born. When we had no washer, we did our laundry at his house. He was the only person to have a positive initial reaction to our trying to have a third child. He had OI (Brittle Bone disease) he was in a wheel chair, but I would never call him disabled. I have never met a more ABLE man in my life. There is nothing in the world that he couldn't do and nothing he wouldn't do for us. He just needed a different way to do it. There is so much more I could say, but I will just say that his passing left a giant hole in our lives that I don't know how it will get filled.

The second bad thing happened when we told Princess Belle and she was devistated. She was send home from school AGAIN (this is daily now) today because they couldn't handle her (due to Asperger issues). Anyway, Prince Charming explained to her that in he was in heaven now and he was in peace and that he was no longer in a wheel chair because in heaven everyone's sicknesses are healed. She was crying and really upset. She cuddled him and thought about that for a while, then she started to cry again and came over to me and whispered in my ear, "Mommy, I wish I could die because then I wouldn't have Aspergers any more." My EIGHT YEAR OLD baby girl is so upset and so traumatized by school these days, by her issues, by her promising to be good and failing and being punished there daily that they have gotten her to a point where she wishes she would DIE!!! It broke my heart. I sobbed and hugged her and told her that I loved her just the way she is. That Aspergers is a part of what makes her her and I wouldn't change not one hair on her head. I told her that I LOVED her and that she and her sisters are my life and I NEVER want to be without her. She promised me she wouldn't wish that anymore, but it killed me a little. I have only ever wanted her to be happy. I know she hasn't been lately. I know that she begs me to stay home and be schooled at home. I know that she feels like she fails when she tries to be good and can't. I know the she has escalated in the last couple of weeks to a point where she is running out of the classroom, she is hiding, she is pushing chairs and tables. My sweet, loving, would never hurt anyone, big hearted baby girl is throwing chairs and hiding under tables screaming. We have decided that we are pulling her out now. We are contacting our lawyer tomorrow. We are sending in the papers, but we are NOT sending her back to that place. They can't control her. She hasn't done any work at all in weeks and she is slowly being destroyed. When a normally happy eight year old girl wishes she would die, it is time to stop and fix it. Red tape and paper work can go straight to hell (sorry for the strong language, but my heart broke twice today and I just can't take it anymore)