We'll . . . there it is

I have been working hard to get myself in a good head space.  I have been trying to cut back on my stress and just enjoy my children.  Today, I went to the doctor.

I haven't had a good (nightmare - free) night's sleep for at least two months.  I am really stressed with trying to keep everything together.  The doctor and I talked and he put me on medication.  It wasn't why I went there but I am okay with the idea of medication, I just want to get into a better place so that I can be the mom my kids deserve.  So far, my kids have no idea that I am struggling and if I can keep it that way, I will be happy.  They are everything to me.  I just wish I could pull myself together and not be such a mess.

Not Bad

Today was a pretty productive day.  I did a lot of work in the bathroom, and it looks so much better. I organized more of laundry room and got some more clearing out done in the sunroom.  I went through the little girls' clothes.  They NEED to stop growing so much!  I can't keep up with them.  They outgrew clothes that they hadn't even worn yet!!  I made cookies as a yummy snack and made baked ham for supper.  Then macaroni and cheese with broccoli as a side dish.

Not a bad rainy, cold day.

Balancing

I am sitting here trying to do my budget and the stress of working to pay more bills than no ey I have is stressing me out.  I really wish I could have had my breakdown a month or two later.

But I have to say, listening to my kids play always makes me smile.  Gosh, I love my babies.