I finally got groceries. As I showed Little Princess the food we had bought and how we finally had some of the food she had been requesting, she got excited and started to twirl around the kitchen. Then she stopped, walked up to me, wrapped her little arms around my waste and hugged me and said, "Thank you mommy." And while I smiled at her sweetness a part of me was sad. My little girl, just thanked me for buying food. How sad is that? How sad is it that she is excited that we were finally able to buy the stuff that she wanted.
In the last little while, I have been amazed at her patience. She is five years old and yet when she kept asking again and again for one thing after another that we didn't have, she didn't cry or complain when the answer was yet again, "Sorry baby, we don't have any, but I will buy some when I get groceries." Five year olds shouldn't have to understand. They shouldn't have to be patient. But she was. She even went so far as to draw me a picture of apple juice and pretzels and put it on the fridge. It was her grocery list of things she wanted me to remember to get for her.
Well, we got paid and we are hopelessly behind and I had to be very frugal with my grocery money, but every thing she has been patiently waiting for, I bought her. Every thing she has asked for and then walked away calmly when I said we didn't have it, I bought it. It was simple things like hot dogs, cheese and milk. And I DEFINITELY got her the apple juice and pretzels she had on her grocery list. I love that she was so excited that we got groceries, I love that she is so patient. I am just sad that she had to be.