I just don’t wanna

It is silly, I know that there is no logic behind it at all but I am a little scared to go to the doctor. It is like somewhere in my heart, I feel like the going to the doctor will make a miscarriage more likely. I know that is not true and I will make an appointment, but I am nervous and I long to just put it off. It feels like as long as it is just me and my baby, we are taking care of each other and we will be okay. *sigh* I know I have to call the doctor, I just don't wanna.