New Year's resolutions!

Now, don't run away, I know what you are thinking. Has TC lost her mind, new years resolutions on the last day of June??? But while the fact that I have my third cold in two months may have caused me to go a little nuts, stick with me here. I was just thinking about how we at the end of the first six months of the year and thinking that I just do an evaluation on how I have lived it so far.

Soooo . . . tell me how did you guys do with your resolutions so far this year? How long did they last? Are you still working on them? Or have you stopped making them?

Here were mine:

January 1, 2006 -- HAPPY NEW YEAR!
So this is the new year. Have you made any resolutions? I have made decisions, instead of resolutions. I have decided:

1. I need to get my weight under control.
2. I need to NOT obsess about it. I need to learn to have a healthy outlook on my food consumption.
3. I need to keep up with my regular schedule of cleaning. And, barring my Christmas season laxness/business, I have been doing really well.
4. I need to concentrate on getting out of the house at least 3 times a week all winter long. Even if it is only to Grandma Great's house.
5. I need to concentrate on being a good freind, a good mother, and a good wife. I sometimes feel like I can't seem to juggle all of these at once. I need to be good to the people I care about. They are the ones who make my world complete. They do so much for me, the least I can do is return the favor.

What are your resolutions?

So here is my update:

1. I have done amazingingly well. Here is my before Picture and here is my current Picture. I have lost 41 lbs and I am only halfway there.

2. I have managed to do this right this time. I haven't given in to my usual path or obsession and eating disorders and I haven't given up. I am viewing this a way to get to a healthier me.

3. Cleaning my house, while that is always a pain in my patootie, I have to say that I am proud to announce that my house is almost always company respectable. You know, in the state that if someone drops by unexpectedly I am not humiliated and embarressed that I am such a bad housekeeper.

4. I don't always go very far but I generally do get out of the house three times a week even if it just to go next door to my neighbour's house. The Little Princess gets outside most every day and she has a little color in her cheeks for the first time in her life.

5. I am really trying to be a good freind, a good mother, and a good wife. I find that it is easier now that I am happier. I am really concentrating on spending time with the Little Princess, on teaching her and enjoying her. I am concentrating on going out of my comfort zone to be a good friend. Step outside myself and visit, and talk and offer to help if I can. And I am concentrating on being a good wife. On being a good comunicator and on just knowing how lucky I really am.

What Happens?

Why is it that people who used to be the most important people in your life drift out of it or move off to the sidelines. That friend that I used to call and visit every single day? I haven't spoken to her in an ENTIRE YEAR! Even my family, I used to call my dad with every little thing that happened in my life. He was the centre of my universe, the one I went to when I was confused, worried, or scared. He was the one I went to for advice and I thought he was about the most perfect man in the world. These days, I don't call him at all. When he calls, I cringe, waiting for that criticism, that sound of disappointment, or the bad news that someone else has died, fallen sick or some other tragedy. It isn't right and I know that most of the distance between those people that I care about and myself is my own fault. I just don't know how to go back. And sometimes, I am not sure that I want too. Is that wrong? Am I a terrible daughter? I really don't know the answer. I do know that I am a grown up now and the man that that now shares the centre of my universe with our daughter is also my best friend. He is the one I go to when I am confused, worried, or scared, the one I go to for advice and while he isn't the most perfect man in the world, but he IS the PERFECT man for me.

The Perfect Alarm Clock

If (as I mentioned yesterday) my alarm each morning is the scary sound of my child rustling in the kitchen, I have found the perfect alarm for those rare occasions that she sleeps in.

See, harkening back to the SIDS days, I have always felt a little panic when she sleeps longer than normal. I start to think crazy thoughts and I have an overwhelming urge to go in and make sure she is just sleeping. I know, I am a crazy, paranoid princess but what can I say, I lost my mind when I had a baby and I haven't been able to get it back since.

So, getting back to this perfect alarm clock . . . popcorn! This morning, she slept in. And getting on towards 10:30 the paranoid mommy in me started screaming at me to wake her up. But if you have ever woken a 4 year old little princess from a deep sleep you will know that this is not a pretty picture. She grumbles, complains, and cries. It isn't worth my peace of mind. So this morning, I decided to make a treat for her. It is payday and we are going shopping for groceries and all that fun and uninteresting stuff and to celebrate, I put on popcorn, something she LOVES but never gets in the mornings. And before the microwave had a chance to finish popping it, she was trudging down the stairs, hair sticking out at odd angles, nightdress tucked into her underpants, and eyes still half closed but still with a HUGE GRIN. She smelled popcorn and that was all she needed to know.

A brand new world

So here I am in the land of plenty and I am enjoying it so much. I love being able to go shopping whenever I want to, even if I never buy anything. I love being able to go places and do things on my own, or with a friend, my choice! I am independent and the world is at my feet!

The little princess is doing well, growing more and more each day and she is constantly trying new things. She thinks she can do anything and a four years old has no idea that there are things that are a little beyond her yet. Every morning I wake up to the sound of rattling in the kitchen. I jump out of bed as quick as my sleep fogged brain will allow me because this is scary. I never know what will greet me when I get there. She may decide to make coffee or she may decide to try on my makeup or she may decide to make koolaide and I never know what kind of mess will greet me if I am not quick enough to get there before she decides to make breakfast. I am going to find a way to block her out of the kitchen in the mornings before she burns the house down trying to make oatmeal. LOL, but you gotta love her, she is just so industrious. The other night, I heard clanging and banging coming from her room. She had attached a skipping rope to her door and the trunk in her room and she had all her toys with handles strung across it. She was trying to lift them off the ground to make them "fly". Now I ask you, isn't that a riot??

My house is huge and I love it. I have the best neighbours on the planet and I am grateful every day that I met them. They are sweet, and friendly and funny and meeting them was the best part of my move.

Prince Charming is back in school to get an education so that he can get a good job. I am so proud of him. He is loving it and he never misses a day.

In my time without a computer, I used housecleaning to fill in my time, I have promised Prince Charming that the house would still remain just as clean now that I am again in the land of good and plenty internet access. So, I guess to that end, I had better go put the clothes on the line and chat with you all later.

It's here! It's here! It's here!

My computer is finally here! I am so thrilled. I love that I finally have contact with the outside world again! Woohoo!!! I am in the process now of trying to get all my old links back and stuff but I am just thrilled to be here! Stay tuned for further ramblings from the scattered mind of a busy Princess!

I'll be coming back

Stay tuned my friends. I am due to have computer access on Wednesday as far as I know. That means that I will be back sharing the ups and downs of this so called fairy tale life. I will tell you that I am happy beyond measure at the moment. I am so content with every aspect of my life that it is sickening. Today . . . I am a happy princess living my happily ever after. Who knows that tomorrow will bring.

You won't believe my life!!!!

I can't believe the way my life goes. I have MOVED AGAIN!!!!!!! Prince Charming has decided he wants to do more with his life than struggle the fisherman's lifestyle. And truthfully, I can't blame him. He deserves more than the struggling season to season wondering whether he will be able to make ends meet. So he went back to school. He is taking a welding course and that means that poor Princess Belle and I have to pick up and leave again. I mean how could be anything but supportive when he is just trying to make his and our life better, right?

So here we are computerless in the big city. The big city part I am LOVING!!!! Back in the land of freedom, busses, shopping malls, playgrounds and parks!!! Woohoo. The computerless part sucks a LOT!!! I would even love to have my broke-assed computer, "Bob" back at this point (and as you know, that is saying something!) I am loving my neighbourhood, I am making friends and I am trying to settle in. It is tough but I really like it here. I am taking the Little Princess to a playgroup twice a week and I have gotten to know my neighbours. So that is all for now, I will get back to with more adventures in the never-ending roller coaster that is my life!