We'll . . . there it is

I have been working hard to get myself in a good head space.  I have been trying to cut back on my stress and just enjoy my children.  Today, I went to the doctor.

I haven't had a good (nightmare - free) night's sleep for at least two months.  I am really stressed with trying to keep everything together.  The doctor and I talked and he put me on medication.  It wasn't why I went there but I am okay with the idea of medication, I just want to get into a better place so that I can be the mom my kids deserve.  So far, my kids have no idea that I am struggling and if I can keep it that way, I will be happy.  They are everything to me.  I just wish I could pull myself together and not be such a mess.